I am Random

Hating life

Sun, 01 Jul 2012 15:05:48 -0400

I’m not in a good place mentally right now. Always feeling like I’m doing things wrong is no bueno. Just wishing that my sister was more supportive emotionally. But I’m never going to get that. No matter wat I’m a failure and never get anything right. I can’t wait till I’m completly independent of her

Remember Me

Thu, 19 Apr 2012 00:18:50 -0400

Thank you so much

12 years, 4 months and 25 days with you

And got nothing out of it

You have put me in situations that I would have never thought to put you in

I knew we weren’t going to work

You’re in love with yourself

Not me

Not the person that cooks, cleans, and cleans your dirty draws

Not the person that lies in your bed every night hoping you will come home

Knowing you won’t but the hope never died

I went days without seeing your face or hearing you voice

I was your woman

Your wifey

You treated me like I was a regular chick

Forgetting the fact that I was there when you had nothing

When a female wouldn’t even look your way or give you the time of day

I was there

Oh but you forgot that with the fame

The money

The hoes

It’s fine

You can forget about the person that loved and supported you before everyone knew you name

Before they even knew you face

Once we go to court you will remember me for the rest of your life

I’m not taking much

Just all that is mine

Oh wait that’s everything

My bad

You will be fine

You have the fame, the money and the hoes

They can cuddle you and keep you warm at night

Now if you will kindly get your crap and get out of my house

Your other life is waiting for you

Joy Bailey

Over everything

Wed, 04 Apr 2012 20:54:37 -0400

There is so much going on in my life right now. I’m losing friends. Feeling like I’m losing my grip on school and life in general. I feel like I am losing myself all in the process. There are ppl that understand what I am going through but i don’t think they know how i deal with things. I’m just over everything. I really am. I’m just praying that God makes a way right now.

fuckyeahanimatedgif: Fallin’ | Alicia Keys

Thu, 12 Jan 2012 20:21:57 -0500

fuckyeahanimatedgif:

Fallin’ | Alicia Keys

captain-disa: justinrampage: Real Pokeball Types by Barry...

Thu, 12 Jan 2012 20:18:16 -0500

Fire Type Pokeball

Ice Type Pokeball

Water Type Pokeball

Electric Type Pokeball

Pokeball of Amaterasu (Okami)

Pokeball of Chibiterasu (Okami)

captain-disa:

justinrampage:

Real Pokeball Types by Barry Wazzy

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Sun, 01 Jan 2012 13:13:39 -0500

Cheap wine but gets u nice

Sun, 01 Jan 2012 11:28:29 -0500

Cheap wine but gets u nice

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Sun, 01 Jan 2012 11:27:29 -0500

Bring it on

Sun, 18 Dec 2011 03:33:41 -0500

BRING IT ON UNIVERSE BRING IT ON. Now u actually manifest ur hits at me BY EGGING MY BABY. Every time something good happens u just have to come in a ruin it. Well bring it. What else can u throw at me. U took away my mother. U tore my family apart. U took away my sanity. U messed up my semester and summer. U ruined my childhood. What else are u going to do? What else are u going to take away? How else are u going to hurt me. WHAT ELSE U GOT!?!

Finding myself

Mon, 12 Dec 2011 01:48:40 -0500

For the past 2.5 years I have been trying to find myself. Trying to find who I get along with and who I truly am. I’m not quite happy with who i am yet. I found someone that is making me happier but my question is am I actually ready for it. I never dated until a year ago. Most guys don’t look at me and say I want to date her. I guess I just don’t have that energy. I want to be that person that you can bring home to mom and take me out in public. I thought i was that person but I guess most guys don’t see that. Sometimes I feel like I’m not worth dating. Sometimes I feel unattractive. It has been recently that attractive men are actually saying that they find me attractive. This is new for me. Believe it or not I don’t feel like i’m the most beautiful in the world. Don’t get me wrong I do think that I am beautiful I just don’t think that guys see that. I wish that I could see what others see in me. I don’t put myself out there either. I do cover up when I go to the club. Don’t approach dudes. I am a little old fashion. I do believe that the guy should approach the woman and ask her out. I feel like men should not aim to get the woman in bed but actually want to get to know her. I feel like women need to have more respect for themselves. I feel like women can exude confidence without looking like a hoe.

I use to be woman that showed her body before her brain. I use to dress provocatively and put myself out there. I got all the attention but it wasn’t the correct attention. I learned that I don’t have to be all out there to get the attention that i craved. It took me 2.5 years to get to this place. But now there is another problem. You know when a group of girls go out and there is always a ugly girl. I feel like that is me. I’m the ugly girl. I’m fine with that i guess. I know that i’m not. Its just sometimes how i feel. Not only this, I feel like i dont belong with my group of ppl. I’m always the odd one out. But I’m in the learning process of learning who I am.

So supposedly I have symptoms of suicide

Wed, 07 Dec 2011 18:47:10 -0500

juliusdurreaux:

But why wouldn’t I

I’m drop dead gorgeous

umm…no

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Wed, 07 Dec 2011 18:43:21 -0500

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Sun, 04 Dec 2011 13:39:44 -0500

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Sun, 04 Dec 2011 00:12:25 -0500

Talking to my Ex.

Fri, 02 Dec 2011 12:56:20 -0500

It’s funny. I’m talking to my ex and I am feel nothing. NOTHING. I love him but when he basically said that he really doesn’t see me as a priority anymore i let go. I let go. I’m confused of what I want. I’m really numb right now. I don’t think that we would ever be ever again.

SHANIQUA.

Thu, 01 Dec 2011 19:59:14 -0500

relentlessambitions:

juliusdurreaux:

relentlessambitions:

LEAVE ME ALONE! the both of you.

juliusdurreaux:

jennbott:

juliusdurreaux:

write your paper

WRITE THAT SHIT!

even jenn said that shit

we love you

ok

listen. u to are snappin. ima need ya’ll to calm down and go get some free food.

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Thu, 01 Dec 2011 19:52:56 -0500

Realization

Wed, 30 Nov 2011 14:55:23 -0500

I am not who I use to be. I do not participate in the same activities that I did in the past. I have changed for the better and I like it. I don’t really hang around people that brought stress in my life. If there is drama in my life it is my own stuff. I like who I am now. The only thing that I don’t like is my weight and that can be fixed easily.

I pride myself on being a good friend. I live by the old cliche’ “treat people how you want to be treated.” I really do but lately I haven’t been getting that. I went on campus today and everyone is like where have u been hiding. I been in my room or my friends room. I don’t go anywhere and I don’t do anything. Going out is not that big of a deal to me. I found that when I stopped wanting to go out and do all the crap that I use to do I lost friends. That’s cool. Don’t really care.

What is hurting me right now is the lose of a sister. I have become numb. I have stopped caring. Told her that if she wants to b my friend that she has to put in the effort. I’m done trying. I have too many people in my life that expect me to be their friend and be there for them but what about me. Who is going to be there for me? This thought has been weighing heavily on my mind for a while. I finally found someone that is willing to help me out and my sister was mad about it. Yes I agree he came too soon. But still he makes me happy. He does things for me that NO other dude has ever done before.

I lost a sister and I did everything to keep the friendship. I’m done

pocketsandbows: That walk off was EPIC!

Mon, 28 Nov 2011 22:37:54 -0500

pocketsandbows:

That walk off was EPIC!

scourging: Bearing Up (by ms4jah)

Mon, 28 Nov 2011 13:48:20 -0500

scourging:

Bearing Up (by ms4jah)